I miss you
I hear you but I won't listen
I refuse to get caught up in these lines again
chasing the high of the first time I ever heard you
you felt so good to me
coursing through my veins
dissolving my troubles
cutting off the air to my brain
allowing me to just
chill
you became my life support
...and then I shared you
trying to mimic our connection with other substance
other people
who knew reality could ruin our bond?
it began to hurt me to let you in
your meaning jagged with vial remains of others
quickly I had to get you out of my system
I covered up my track record with sleeves of silence
covered up the shakes with a dance
and withdrew from you
with the snap of my fingers I forgot what you felt like
for a year i couldn't even manage a taste
sitting on my demons
sipping on spirits
I didn't want to remember
because I couldn't handle your direction
but I miss us
I'm not composed without you
